Heart Ur NME

I have a dear friend who has "heart ur nme" on her license plate. This friend is a Christian woman, like minded with me in so many ways and I respect her very much. I think her license plate is gutsy and cool.

I have had a great opportunity to practice the concept of loving one's enemy as of late. I was told by a client that, according to the Mayan Calender, there is a time where the light is less, at present, and the darkness is allowed to re-surface. Boy is it! I have definitely heard from clients that there are dark shadows re-emerging in their lives and there are definitely dark shadows rearing their ugly heads in my life.

One of those shadows was quite powerful and used to dominate my life. I am so happy to realize that it "used to" but it does not anymore. At first I was angry that it re-surfaced and re-awakened such intense fear from within me but now I am actually grateful that it has come back so that I could finish the lesson it was teaching me. The lesson was simple to understand but very hard to get. I'll tell you the lesson first: If I am not open to receiving that energy of fear and insanity, then it actually can not come into my energy. When I figured this out, it was like as if every pore of my body that was once open to receiving this darkness simply filled up with golden light and there was no more room to receive the negative energy. It simply had no where to go and consequently, I felt safer then I ever had before and somehow, more in my body and my energy. I no longer allowed my fear to control me. Then I worked on blessing the source of the fear.

Yup, here's where the license plate comes into my consciousness. Love my enemy. Well, if you work on that concept alone, I prayed for this source of fear and insanity from my past. It is an actual person which made it easy to direct my prayer towards "something". In this specific case, I thought of how sad it is that this person was seemingly incapable of the same level of emotion and ability to engage in life in a positive way that heals not only the self but the many. I know that directing my love, not my anger, fear or resentment, is the only way to diminish his darkness. Darkness can not live in the light. (that might even be a quote from Harry Potter, lol) Feeling fear, anger, resentment and more only feed not only his power of darkness in my life but his own darkness in his life. I didn't cause his situation, I can't fix it or cure it, nor can I control it, but I can send love through prayer and meditation.

I have also struggled with the practical side of this which is demonstrated above. I do not need to contact this source of darkness directly. I can stay in my own positive space and energy and simply pray and meditate in love and light. I do not need to make contact in order to send love. This person does not need to know on a conscious level what my response to their darkness will be, on an unconscious level or even a Spirit level, I am sure they know.

Here's the last part of the license plate contemplation: if you read the license plate literally, it is a heart symbol followed by ur nme. It is fine to acknowledge the heart symbol meaning love. Then let's look at the abreviation for "your" as u r. But what if we take that literally to mean "you are" as by the pronunciation of the letters "u" and "r". Am I my enemy? The nme when pronounced by the sound of the letters clearly says "enemy" so if I apply that to the "ur" I must contemplate the whole formula as such. Love you are enemy. In doing so, I move back to my original point of this post.

It is my receptiveness to this person's fear and darkness that allows it to be in my life and have any power over me at all. I am my own enemy. My Love, My Light and my weakness in staying in those spaces and opening and receiving this particular stream of darkness is truly my enemy. What if I simply was no longer receptive to that fear and insanity? What if I treated it like a foreign language that I used to speak fluently but haven't in decades and therefore, I acknowledge it, understand it is a language I don't speak anymore, seems familiar but I don't need to interpret it in my head and consequently let it go. I have nothing against anyone speaking that language, I can smile and be kind to them and know what language they speak, but I don't need to engage in conversation in that language or interpret it into my own life. They are not the enemy for speaking that language. This dark shadow energy within this other person is not my enemy. They are going through their own journey, struggling and such. Somewhere we agreed to struggle together and I invited their energy into my energy. If anything, I can offer love and compassion because I know what it is like to struggle with that darkness. Here's the great part, I chose to move on.

First I moved on physically and changed my physical circumstances so as not to be around that energy. Then I let it go mentally. Finally emotionally it started to just seep away. This experience brought it literally screaming back into my life and it rattled me to the core but I also noticed how I had changed and this energy in my life no longer felt comfortable, like clothes that wore out and no longer felt or looked good on me. This is no longer part of who I am physically, mentally or spiritually.

Taking the license plate just one more step. Love you are in me. Yes, that is in me and I can move on with my journey. Everyone is in me and in each of us love. What we chose to see, adore, be irritated by, fear, cherish and nurture within is in each of us. What do we chose to receive today?